Happy Mommy's and Daddy's

So today i saw a man with his baby girl...she was about 2 or 3 months old...about the same age Alexis would have been...as soon as i saw them....i couldnt stop the tears. It makes me so sad and mad...it makes me miss Alexis even more. My husband should be that happy daddy with his baby girl...so proud of every new accomplishment and terrified of the next dirty diaper because he doesnt want a poopy one. And i should be the happy mommy just watching my little girl grow and all of the adorable moments with her daddy. It was so hard...i miss her some much...i want a baby soooo bad. We have to wait physically awhile...but i wish we werent waiting so long...sometimes....other times i try to think of the positive. UGhhhhhh its so frustrating and AHHHHHHH.....NOT FREAKIN FAIR. I just feel like idk...curling up in bed and not coming out for an extended period of time...it must be because i just went back to work today. It was a hard week, a long week, an emotional week...i had to tell on average 2 pple a day that Alexis had died...it got easier all week...until today...a man asked how much my baby girl weighed and then said i looked tired...he said i guess she isn't sleeping yet...i said no...she is always sleeping and will never wake up...a fellow employee had to explain  to him what i meant. I wish i could hide away from people this weekend....too bad that cant happen...oh well i will make the best of it. Man how i love blogging it is such a stress reliever....and thank you...for reading. And do me a favor...tell people...tell people about still births and if you know someone that has been through this and you dont know what to say.....just tell them you are sorry....and hug them....you dont need to say anything....but if you do....ask about the baby...we want to talk about our children...we are parents...parents of Angels....but still parents.